i wish i can skip this phase of life.
yes,life after a's were great. joy,relieved, everything.
but i guess,its not really fantastic after all.
i think im having regrets now.
i fear disappointments.
expectations that i cannot meet.
too much to handle.
so many 'what ifs' in my mind now
so how do i deal with them.shut my brain and go to sleep.

ironically,burdens are heavier now.

whatever.
im still learning to be more self independent.
im old enough.
old enough to share the burdens,
to identify who's the angel and who's the devil.
but i still don't know whether to hate or be grateful.

hoho 3 more days to vday,which means 3 more days to seeing dear!
i still hvnt thought of what to make/buy.
hahaha thats not impt to you right dear!
okay im trying to console myself cause i may not be able to finish making gift on time.

some lift upgrading projects going on.
im fucking lack of sleep cause of the stupid noise pollutions.
hurry get done with it man.
i wish i can move to somewhere else.
i hate this place.