i controlled my temper
i held back my emotions, put on a smile
ive tried to turn things for the better

all because im afraid of losing

i feel really helpless now.idk what to do and no one can.
no one can see and understand the change in you.no one, including urself.
right now all doesnt matter. i only just want things between us to stay as simple and happy as they were like the past.but why is it so damn hard?

im really trying, trying till im at my wits end.

its a horrible week.yes, entire week just ended badly every single day.

im simply just fucking afraid of losing you


"You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore."
-Christopher Columbus

Whatever i have now, is it really what i want?

The fact is, no i dont know what i want in life. Nothing in particular, yet.

What i want to be versus what i CAN be.

You have to do what you are afraid of in order to find out what you didnt know you were looking for. This takes alot of courage.


ive no idea whether its my muscles or my bones aching?!
having a horrible sore throat now ): hurts even swallowing saliva.

okay im aching all over my body now from my arms to my back to my tummy to my legs.
cos of the run yesterday!
gosh felt so lousy after just 2 rounds!
waiting for kohterence to conquer the bt timah hill with me aft training up abit on the track!if not he would just leave me behind again like wht he did when we ran from his house to seletar reservoir.at that point of time my stamina was still there and i was already miles behind him! (okay he damn mean right!it was night time summore lor, what if i got kidnapped by some banglas)
imagine now i think i have to crawl up the hill instead lor.
so yeah, run run run!to lose weight too!

and i had crabs for 3 times in mere 5 days?
im really sick of crabs already!

i just checked my results!
omg i felt so nervous 1h before the release of it.
when im nervous i would feel like shitting!and that feeling was damn weird!haha
as expected i did worse than sem1.
but ya, wht can i expect right.
DAMN.

wells.hope my throat feels better tmr!


im bored.

shall list shows tht ive been watching from everywhere!

1) himym season 5 (all time fav!) just done d/l-ing season 6!

2) Playful kiss! online episodes are super sweeeet!
Baek Seung Jo and Oh Ha Ni <3
okay the guy is damn cute la.
watched it twice online.
watching on chn 825 and the repeats. :D

3) Masterchef Australia season 2
its much draggy and longer than masterchef US!
some are quite interesting esp like watching the team challenges!
still prefer the US one though!i think chn 5 is airing it!

4) DC Cupcakes season 1 and 2 (depending which epi is shown on starworld)
i din knw you can do so much with cupcakes!
its somewhat similar to cake boss but with cupcakes lor!
i wish i can make those pretty cupcakes too!

5) Glee season 2
watching it only on starworld.
not too much of my liking to chase it online.

6) 国民英雄
cause its showing everyday on 825 and ive got nth to do so i watched it, mainly because of 郑元畅！the content super lame la, just watched it for the sake of watching

7) 犀利人妻
i completed the drama already!watching it agn on 825 cause im always bored on sundays when boyfee is working.
im impressed with sui tang's acting!

okay maybe i shud start watching Big Bang Theory since ive already had 3 seasons of them in my lappy.

omg decision making!glee or himym now?


orange bowl is <3!
finally!after 2 years!