i controlled my temper
i held back my emotions, put on a smile
ive tried to turn things for the better

all because im afraid of losing

i feel really helpless now.idk what to do and no one can.
no one can see and understand the change in you.no one, including urself.
right now all doesnt matter. i only just want things between us to stay as simple and happy as they were like the past.but why is it so damn hard?

im really trying, trying till im at my wits end.

its a horrible week.yes, entire week just ended badly every single day.

im simply just fucking afraid of losing you